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| The ex Olympic star finally opens up about his torment living in a man's body. |
Bruce Jenner has confirmed that he is now living as a woman.. In a shocking interview with Diane Sawyer, he said
To all intents and purposes, I am a woman.'My brain is much more female than it is male. That's what my soul is. Bruce lives a lie. She is not a lie.''I can't do it anymore.'Bruce also admitted that he has been taking female hormones for five years - and plans to completely
transform into a woman.But he said he was still attracted to females and always enjoyed a good sex life
transform into a woman.But he said he was still attracted to females and always enjoyed a good sex life
'I was never attracted to the guys,' 'You know what... it's going to be tough. I've been thinking about this day forever and what I should do with my life. How do I tell my story, how do I tell people what i've been through? And that day is today.' He then asked Diane for a tissue and used it to wipe his tear-filled eyes.
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Lowering his hand to the ground, he said
'I have always been very confused with my gender identity since I was this big,''People look at me differently. They see this macho male, but this female side is part of me, it’s who I am. I was not genetically born that way, and so now I have all the male parts and all that kind of stuff so in a lot of ways we’re different but we still identify as female.'He continued
My whole life has been getting me ready for this. I'm really excited about the future, about what good I could do in the world. It's going to be an emotional rollercoaster, but somehow I'm gonna get through it... I feel like I’m going to be OK. 2015 is going to be quite a ride... Quite a ride
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Noting this was going to be his last interview as a man, Bruce Jenner said
I'm a person and that's who I am,' he said. 'I'm not stuck in anyone's body. It's just me. It's who I am.' On Kris, he said she knew about his internal torment from the moment they started dating in the early 1990s. She saw him cross-dressing, he revealed, but he found it difficult to fully express how deep his feelings sat; that his believed his soul to be female.
'I kind of downplayed it,' 'I feel like in a lot of ways, when you loves somebody, you have a tendency, you don't want to hurt them.' 'She didn't say much... "OK, you gonna change now?"'
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Bruce added:
'I probably was not as good at saying, "This is really down deep in my soul and I don't know if I can go any farther like this."'It was tough on her. You see your husband, I get that. I understand...Kris is a good woman. I've got no complaints with her. She's a good person. He said Kris's daughter, Khloe Kardashian,, had reacted the worst to the news.
'Khloe has been very emotional, she's had the toughest time with it, she's had a lot of losses in her life,' he said, adding that Kim was 'by far the most accepting' to his decision to transform into a woman. Bruce was also caught wearing a dress by 34-year-old Kim, whom he said 'kind of walked out, jumped in the car and went for a ride.' He said it became a 'big secret,' which they never discussed again until transition rumours surfaced a few years ago.
'I said, "Okay, I'm so tired of lying to everybody. So I told her all my issues.And then after it was over with, I felt much better. But when I brought the issue up again, she said: "I just thought it was one of those subjects I couldn't talk about."'
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Kim told me a story. She goes,You know what really turned me around on thinking about this?" I said, "What?" She goes, "Kanye." I went, "Oh, okay,"
'Kanye says to Kim "Look, I can be married to the most beautiful woman in the world, and I am. I can have the most beautiful little daughter in the world, and I have that. But I'm nothing if I can't be me. If I can't be true to myself, they don't mean anything."'
Bruce revealed how he had explained his identity to his children.
'[I told them] "God's looking down, making little Bruce. He gave me all these wonderful qualities. [But then He thought] wait a second, we've got to give him something in his life to struggle with. Let's give him the soul of a female".' he said.
He revealed that about a year and a half ago, he contemplated suicide. After a doctor's appointment Bruce made to get a trachial shave was leaked, he was greeted with paparazzi waiting for him at the office, and that was a very hard moment to come to face with
That night I thought, 'Oh, it's, like, over.' And I was in this, walking up and down this hall right here, back and forth, back and forth all night long,"
"Heart's pounding. And I thought, wouldn't the easiest thing to be right now, and I could see where people get to that—is go in the room, get a gun. Boom. You know? Pain's over. Done. You know. Go to a better place and I thought, nah, I cant do something like that. I mean, I wanna know how this story ends."Incredibly, he also told Diane that he had embarked on hormone therapy and electrolysis within 10 years of becoming an Olympic champion in 1976.
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He said he took the female hormone estrogen for a staggering five years, saying women do not know 'how lucky they are that they can be themselves'.However, fear drove him to stop the process and continue giving motivational speeches as a man.
'I'm saying goodbye to people's perception of me and who I am. I'm not saying goodbye to me because this has always been me'